~~Blinks Pixie~~

Baby Please....

2005-09-21T00:27:14Z

I would just like to say Christopher I love you with all my heart and please do not take this shit to heart. You are my one and only and have been for quite some time and should know that by now. Please don`t do this i love you and I know you love me. Forever and always remember? Don`t let something petty like this kill us!

Survey Says.......

2005-09-19T04:44:11Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Kristen
Birthday:	7/19/85
Birthplace:	Detroit, Michigan
Current Location:	Clinton Township
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	brown with blong highlights
Height:	5'4 1/2 "
Right Handed or Left Handed:	rihgt handed
Your Heritage:	mexican
The Shoes You Wore Today:	my work shoes
Your Weakness:	Chris,
Your Fears:	Not having Chris around and being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	Cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	For Chris and I to be back together and there to be not bullshit drama or rumor that are untrue
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	what time is it and time to call Christopher
Your Best Physical Feature:	my boobs
Your Bedtime:	usually between 1 - 4 am
Your Most Missed Memory:	January 2004 - November 2004
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	yea
Do you Swear:	yea
Do you Sing:	not well
Do you Shower Daily:	yea sometimes twice a day
Have you Been in Love:	yea
Do you want to go to College:	yea
Do you want to get Married:	eventually
Do you belive in yourself:	occassionally
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	i dunno you tell me
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	yea very well but occassionally we but heads
Do you like Thunderstorms:	love em`
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yea
In the past month have you Smoked:	I currently am
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yea
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yea
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yea
Ever been called a Tease:	yea
Ever been Beaten up:	not recently
Ever Shoplifted:	a long time ago
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a pediatric nurse
What country would you most like to Visit:	Austrailia but thats a continent other than that Aruba
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Green or brown
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	depends but usually short
Height:	6' +
Weight:	it depends i don`t know weight on guys
Best Clothing Style:	skater or the way Christopher dresses
Number of Drugs I have taken:	a lot lets just say that
Number of CDs I own:	like 3 because they were all stolen when my car was stolen
Number of Piercings:	9
Number of Tattoos:	0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	losing Chris once
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I love you Christopher Todd Lutz with all my heart I have ever since i was 17 and nothing has changed please don`t be mad at me any more bbay. Life with out you just isn`t right . Forevr and always remember?

This Was Exstreamly Gay!!!!!!

2005-09-02T01:30:31Z

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5) Where was star_kisses born? michigan
6) If allison85 and say_tha_least were siamese twins, where would they be joined? hip
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8) If truangel were hanging off a cliff, what would falling_fate do? help them
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10) Have you flirted with simpleplanfan33? no
11) What song/movie would you recommend to angelgonbad69? good girl
12) What do you disagree with strawb3rry_k1ss about? stupid shit
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"Karma" By: Alicia Keys

2005-08-31T03:36:21Z

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause....

What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

Gotta love karma baby.....because its fucked all of us including me...

Update.....

2005-08-03T07:49:30Z

Wishin and hopin....what does that do anymore?

I just don`t get things anymore. At times I feel like it couldn`t get any worse. I miss someone and I just hope that he could be here right now because something medically is wrong with me and what they told me has me scared "shitless". And I know that it seems like that there is something always wrong with me but for awhile there hasn`t but today I heard something so terrible I couldn`t even bare to tell anyone but Bucky and Chris because I knew it would scare my parents more than me. So tomorrow I have to go back to the doctors for round three of test so pray for me.

On another note I feel like I lost a chunk of my heart. Sometimes I wish I could back in time and rearrange things and I also wish that this life is just one big nightmare and I`ll wkake up back in your arms where I belong.

All I gotta say is I know you say things have to change but not like this. I just beg that you`ll see that. Right now I need you. Really badly and I promise that this time around it will be different . For you I will. Remember forever and always. At one time that meant something and it can again.

Another update I`m still at the Boo. I like it there, I`m getting to know the girls there better now and I love Kristen there. She is a total sweetheart, Kristen is just an all around bubbley girl. Back to the Boo the money is good a lil shitty on slow nights but still I make decient money.

But kiddies its like 4am and I`m gettin a lil sleepy and I have to be up early for round three. Talk to you soon.

Hugs & Kisses,
Kristen

blinks182143 @ 2005-08-02T23:06:00

2005-08-03T04:10:45Z

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me

Survey Says....

2005-07-18T06:41:18Z

1] What is your first and middle name? Kristen Mary
2] Why did your parents name you these names? I assume they liked the name and it was the name of the nurse at the hospital when I was born
3] Where is your birthmark at? don`t got one
4] Do you even know why you have one of these? ^^^
5] What are your measurements? my boobs are big that all you get to know....fucker
6] What is your one weird ability [C‘mon, everyone has one]: flexible like woah
7] Describe your “style” when it comes to what you wear: whatevr I want I just me like it or not
8] Do you eat something that everyone else thinks is gross? toast with mayo and lettuce

[Warm fuzzies]
9] Do you have a special someone? I don`t know what you would call it
10] What’s his or her name? Christopher
11] What does this person do for a living? He works at a medical building with Pat
12] How does this he/she make you feel? depends on the day he is like my best bud, my heart .......my everything
13] Name, in months, how long you have been dating: off and on a year and a half
14] Was it love at first sight? I knew the moment that I met him that he would be the first perosn I would ever love
15] The ultimate greatest thing about him/her is: he taught me whatlove is
16] [A year passes.] Do you still see yourself happy with this person? yes
17] What do you guys do for fun? whatever
18] How long did it take you to say the “L” word to him/her? I told him first but he told me on Valentine`s Day
19] How many serious relationships have you had? this I would say is my first
20] Name one song that explains a past relationships: Wasting my Time by Default

[Getting an edumacation]
21] What school do you attend? None at the moment
22] How many students go there with you? none dumbass
23] What grade are you in? somewhere between freshman and sophmore in college
24] What do you like about going to school? I hate it but i know that I need to go to go somewhere with my life
25] Favorite class: none
26] What college/university are you going to afterward? no clue
27] Name a couple majors you are interested in: Either medical assisitant or medical billing
28] What degree are you aiming at earning? Isn`t that somewhat the same question that you just asked me?

[Living quarters]
29] Do you live at home with your parents? yea but I have a apartment with Chris too
28] Is your room big? Its huge and messy
29] What size is your bed? queen
30] What color are the walls? purple and lime green with purple pixixe dust goin around it .....I LOVE Tinkerbell
31] Do you have any animals in there?My favorites are my purple hippo Tubby and the lion I got chris
32] Are you in your bedroom most of the time? just to sleep

[Your cup of tea]
33] What is your all time favorite movie? tough either the little mermaid, the sweetest thing or the notebook
34] Why so? all just have good love story but the little mermaid is a childhood memory
35] Do you prefer Jay Leno or Conan O’Brien? leno
36] What are three things that you are obsessed with? sleeping, smoking and tinkerbell
37] What is your favorite CD at the moment?none really
38] What celebrity do you think is the cutest? Bam Margera,
39] What’s the last really good movie you have seen? Charlie and the chocolate Factory
40] When’s the last time you cried during a movie? The Notebook today

[Working your ass off]
41] Do you have a job? oh yeah
42] Where do you work at? The Great Baraboo
43] What do you do there? I`m a waitress
44] How long have you been working at this place? about two weeks
45] Do you see yourself working there for a while? Awhile

*Basic Information*
1)What is your full name? Kristen Mary Openshaw
2) When did you last shower? about 4 hours ago
3)What color pants are you wearing? White capri pj pants with ladybugs on them
4) What song are you listening to? just heard "Sexual Healing" by Marvin Gaye
5)What was the last thing you said? I know what you got me for my birthday
6) What is right next to you? My love buscuit bucky
7)What was the last thing you ate? pizza
8) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? Austrailia or Disney World
9)Have you ever smoked? yes I am right now
10) What did you do last night? hung out with bucky.....What i do all the time dur
11)How are you today? lazy
12) How do you eat your Oreos? I like double stuffed ones dipped in water
13)Who makes you happy? depends lots of stuff...Chris, coke slurpees,sleepin, vicodin....
14) Nicknames? Kris, blinks, Oda Mae, Spaniarita, Jigglypuff, beebo, bitch
15)Eye Color? brown but they turn green
16) Do you wear contacts? nope glasses occassionally like now
17)Siblings and their ages? Jamie - 27
18) What school do you go to? none
19)What do you want to do when you grow up? I wanna work in the medical field
20) What are your future goals? to have a good birthday .....tomorrow
21)What is your favorite type of music? alternative rock usually but I like it all
22) Fave Food? My mom`s Turkey, stuffing, mashed potates the whole Thanksgiving thing
23)Fave day of the year? whatever day but my birfday
24) Do you like to Dance? maybe if I was drunk
25)Are you too shy to ask someone out? doubt it
26) Favorite Name Brand? Bam
27)Do you sleep w/ any stuffed animals? yep...Tubby, Mousey and Larry
28) Fave Drink? Lemonade
29)Do you like happy or sad movies? depends on what mood i'm in
30) On the phone or in person? in person
31)Night or Day? Night
32) Summer or Winter? winter / fall actually
33)Lust or Love? love by far
34) Do you want people to write back? whatever floats their boat
35)Who is least likely to respond? I dunno
36) Who is most likely to respond? I dunno
37)What is the best gift you've ever received? The ring Chris got me
38) Birthday: 7/19/85
39)Hometown: Detroit, Michigan
40) What are your plans for today: dunno
41)What time is it? 2 am

*LAST PERSON WHO...*
*Called you: Jamie
*Saw you cry? my mom
*Made you cry: Chris
*Spent the night at your house: Chris, Bucky and Mojo Joe joe
*Yelled at you: my dad
*Sent you an e-mail: Jamie

*WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:*
*Made a milk mustache and showed someone: prolly the last time I had milk
*Said "I love you" and not meant it: long , long ass time ago ... I`d only say that if I meant it
*Gotten into a fight with your dog\cat\fish\etc: not my dog but play fighting with Sable and the kikster
*Went to New York City: never been
*Florida?: march
*California? walked into
*Hawaii? not yet
*Mexico? On a crusie we docked in Cozemel
*China? nope been there
*Dreamed? all the time

*YOUR FRIENDS:*
*Laughs the weirdest: Julia by far
*Will grow up and be a model: my ass
*Laughs the loudest: Julia
*Have you known the longest? Allison
*Knows you the best: Bucky
*Is the loudest: dunno
*Who's the quietest: At first maybe Bucky
*Who do you have the most classes with?:
*Will fill this out and send it back the soonest? no one I bet

*WHEN WAS THE:*
*The last birthday party you went to: I don`t remember
*The last time you went out of the country? months ago to la canida
*Lucky #'s: 143,19
*What time is it now? 2 am didn`t you just ask that you moron
*What is the first thing you reached for this morning? my blanket to take downstairs
*When was the last time you felt like just wanting to tell someone something? a mintue ago
*Have you ever wondered what life would be like if your kneecaps were on the other side? Not recently
*Have you ever went skinny dipping? Yep
*Have you ever been south of Sweden?: Sorry no
*How would you describe a best friend? Someone who knows you inside and out, will not judge you for what you do even if the disagree with it but they support you and someone who is there no matter what.
*What, if anything, would you change about yourself? my tummy and I whiney/ bitchinedd
*Who is your role model? My cousin Renee
*If you could repeat one year in your life what year would it be? The year 2004

Survey Says....

2005-07-16T03:58:14Z

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF -

Name: Kristen Mary
Birthday: 7-19-1985
Birthplace: Detroit, MI
Current Location: Clinton Twp MI
Eye Color: light brown/hazel
Hair Color: brown with blond highlights
Height: around 5'4 1/2"
Right Handed or Left Handed: RIGHT
Your Heritage: mexican , english irish and german
The Shoes You Wore Today: black platform flip flops
Your Weakness: cookies
Your Fears: dying, and not knowing a certain someone
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: finally get a tattoo
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: what time is it.
Your Best Physical Feature: chest and eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever
Your Most Missed Memory: ones with Chris
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: single..
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: either or but its gotta have vanilla in it
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: only in the shower and in my car...
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: yea
Do you want to go to College: yea more like a technical school
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: depends on what the matter is
Do you get Motion Sickness: no
Do you think you are Attractive: i dunno
Are you a Health Freak: no way
Do you get along with your Parents: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: yea
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: uh yes
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no GROSS!!!
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: i dunno
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yeah
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: by my brother when I was little
Ever Shoplifted: maybe once when I was like 13
How do you want to Die: in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: I think something in the medical field but I`ve been thinking about beauty school
What country would you most like to Visit: France
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: any
Favourite Hair Color: brown or black
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: 6' +
Weight: doesn`t really matter to me
Best Clothing Style: skater
Number of Drugs I have taken: I dunno
Number of CDs I own: like maybe two because they were all stolen with my car
Number of Piercings: 9
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of things in my Past I Regret: 1

Sad............

2005-07-12T22:43:08Z

I`m sorry I never meant for it to turn out this way. I miss you. Please come back around. I don`t know what to say other than I miss you.I`m begging you don`t let it be like this. Please say you will and make my birthday worth it.

My Lil Poem.....

2005-07-08T03:33:17Z

I like balls. how bout you? Fuck Hollywood long live the Boo.

No longer employed at Hollywood now I reside to The Great Baraboo.....

I wannna snuggle...

I hope my Daddy is okay......

I get to chill with my Love Buscuit.....

I`ll be 20 in 12 days.....

Moo...........

I heart you Punkin.....

Good Bye

Hugs & Kisses

~*~Kristen~*~

Update...........

2005-07-01T03:26:05Z

No longer living at home I have an apartment with Punkin who I`m wainting to get off of work but I`m currently hanging out with my love buscuit my darling Bucky....talk to you later kiddies
~*~Kristen~*~

With Someone Who Makes Me Smile.....

2005-04-03T04:22:44Z

you all suck..... now i`m actually happy

Hhhhhhhhhhhhmmmm......

2005-03-28T00:07:27Z

~*~Jack~*~
My dearest friend, if you don't mind
I'd like to sit by your side
Where we can gaze into the stars

~*~Sally and Jack~*~
And sit together, now and forever
For it is plain as anyone can see
We're simply meant to be

Like my previous entry this line from the movie and if you`re bright you`ll know which one I`m talking about if not go fuck yourself you are just ignorant. Anywho this used to remind me of something that at one time I thought was great until I realize it was pretty much a lie and if it wasn`t prove me wrong. What does it matter anyway the damage has been done and I don`t know about you guys out there but I know I`m damaged beyond repair and only one person can fix that but now I don`t know if I want him to but then again I do. Why did you lie?

"Sally`s Song" Nightmare Before Christmas

2005-03-28T00:02:55Z

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we end up together?
No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

Shit and they say that movies cannot depict real life.....They open emotion better than anything I`ve ever know.

Think Again......

2005-03-27T18:26:45Z

I thoughtt hat you loved me but I guess it was all a lie huh? I cannot believe you you simply amaze me with the things that come out of your mouth...Fuck it whatever...

blinks182143 @ 2005-03-21T06:58:00

2005-03-22T00:15:17Z

*Basic Information*
1)What is your full name? Kristen Mary Openshaw
2) When did you last shower? i`m goin in when this is done
3)What color pants are you wearing? black comfy pants and a tee
4) What song are you listening to? "One Step Forward" by: The Color Green
5)What was the last thing you said? ok
6) What is right next to you? a lamp
7)What was the last thing you ate? macdonald`s this morning
8) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? Disney World or Austrailia
9)Have you ever smoked? yea
10) What did you do last night? hung out with bucky and talked on the phone
11)How are you today? shitty rough day
12) How do you eat your Oreos? dipped in milk
13)Who makes you happy? It used to be Chris but now no one
14) Nicknames? Kris , Blinks, Beebo ....
15)Eye Color? brown
16) Do you wear contacts? nah
17)Siblings and their ages? Jamie 27
18) What school do you go to? no where at the moment
19)What do you want to do when you grow up? Medical Billing
20) What are your future goals? see above
21)What is your favorite type of music? alternative
22) Fave Food? At the moment Mexican and salads
23)Fave day of the year? none
24) Do you like to Dance? not really
25)Are you too shy to ask someone out? no
26) Favorite Name Brand? Don`t get in to name brands
27)Do you sleep w/ any stuffed animals? they are on my bed
28) Fave Drink? water, fruit punch, long island Iced Tea and beer
29)Do you like happy or sad movies? sad
30) On the phone or in person? in person
31)Night or Day? Night
32) Summer or Winter? Fall
33)Lust or Love? love but its pointless it just hurts you
34) Do you want people to write back? i could care less
35)Who is least likely to respond? Dunno
36) Who is most likely to respond? i dunno
37)What is the best gift you've ever received? the ring from Chris
38) Birthday: 7-19-85
39)Hometown: Detroit
40) What are your plans for today: not too sure
41)What time is it? 7:08pm

*LAST PERSON WHO...*
*Called you: Pat
*Saw you cry? No one I`d rather hide that
*Made you cry: memories
*Spent the night at your house: Bucky
*Yelled at you: my mom
*Sent you an e-mail: Chris
*WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:*
*Made a milk mustache and showed someone: i never did that
*Said "I love you" and not meant it: no i wouldn`t say it if i didn`t mean it
*Gotten into a fight with your dog\cat\fish\etc: no
*Went to New York City: i wish
*Florida?: just got back
*California? walked into it
*Hawaii? nope
*Mexico? been there
*China? nope
*Dreamed? all the time
*YOUR FRIENDS:*
*Laughs the weirdest: Julia
*Will grow up and be a model: no clue
*Laughs the loudest: Julia
*Have you known the longest? Bucky
*Knows you the best: Bucky
*Is the loudest: Julia
*Who's the quietest: me
*Who do you have the most classes with?: no one
*Will fill this out and send it back the soonest? you don't send it back
*WHEN WAS THE:*
*The last birthday party you went to: my mom`s
*The last time you went out of the country? canada a few weeks ago
*Lucky #'s: 143
*What time is it now? 5:07
*What is the first thing you reached for this morning? my cigarettes
*When was the last time you felt like just wanting to tell someone something? last night on the phone
*Have you ever wondered what life would be like if your kneecaps were on the other side? not recently
*Have you ever went skinny dipping? yep
*Have you ever been south of Sweden?: no
*How would you describe a best friend? someone who knows all about you and is always there and vice versa
*What, if anything, would you change about yourself? everything ....
*Who is your role model? my cousin Renee
*If you could repeat one year in your life what year would it be? last year

I love it

2005-03-15T23:30:31Z

Stewie is Love.

Question......

2005-03-15T02:34:22Z

Would you like me if I weighted 110lbs and looked different?

I said I`d do anything.....

OMG......

2005-03-14T18:54:35Z

I finally fell asleep, anywho I`m seriously sick of people talking shit about the wrong people. I mean stuff is said out of anger thats what cause fighting, I need to seriously eliminate more people *NOTE* that person you emailed me and said I talk to he has been eliminated too. I`m sorry I didn`t listen sooner *NOTE* Blah I haven`t talked this much on here in a long time but to hell with those fucks

Please Come Back

Fuck Everything.....

2005-03-14T13:54:05Z

Its now 8:30 in the morning I have been up since 5:30 if not a little earlier I have started to drink coffee why I don`t know because this shit is nasty but I`m done with pop. I`m currently listening to HIM which will most likely remind me of Chris like thats a shocker but fuck it he got me to totally dig them. I hate the world, I wish I could sleep but now for some reason I cannot sleep ever. Too much thats fucked? Perhaps I decided I`m done with drinking its a waste unless its Canada or a party. I really don`t wanna work out today but I gotta keep tickin. I`m also really iritated because I wish I would have listened about stuff from before. *Note* Its not too late it can get better.*Note* I have fully decided I beating this bitches ass, I `m usually not the type to go and fight I`d rather avoid it because most of the time its not worth it but I`ve fully decided that this slut will pay and I don`t give a fuck if I get arrested for assult or whatever you call. Oh and to the slut across the street thanks for using me to fuck my brother and being my supposed friend because you liked my family I hate to tell ya they know EVERYTHING about your raunchy ass life and think you are worthless trash. Stay the fuck away from me and my brother don`t talk to him you ain`t worth talking to him. BTW you should probably shave you`re a little manly but thats not a suprize. Oh and tell Fat fuck Lauren that she should wipe her conscious and close her legs but I guess she learned that they should be open from you.
Anywho I think with my next check its piercing time. Anywho my life is fuck whatever you wanna say about it the only thing missing is Chris. I`ll deal with it and keep praying that he`ll talk to me. Anywho I think I`m off to the gym soon or maybe I`ll do the shit here. Anyone make and nasty ass comment without leaving a name don`t think I fear you maybe I would have be for but I don`t got shit left to lose I already lost the best thing I had so whomever wrote that eat a dick and kill yourself or step up and say it to my face!
Everyone else the select few and you know who you are I luv ya.

This Shit Causes Insomnia.....

2005-03-14T11:35:18Z

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend

I wanna be with you
If only for one night
To be the one who's in your arms to hold you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you

So I'll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine to hold you forever more
And I'll savor each touch that I wanted so much to feel before, to feel before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

I don't wanna make excuses babe
Won't change the fact that your gone (no, no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know
Time is passing so slowly now
'Coz what's my life without you
Baby I could change my every day
Baby I don't want to

I'll just hang around and find some things to do
Take my mind off missing you (take my mind off you)
Yes I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

I never had a dream come true
'Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back, oh wondering
How it should be now, oh might have been
Oh this I know, but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've sure enjoyed the rain
but I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
when you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time
would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone,
but where do I go from here 'cause

Without you I'm not okay
And without you
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck
in second place ooh
Without you

This is what I do when I cannot sleep....kill me now.

I don`t care what anyone thinks about this....

2005-03-14T00:18:08Z

Everyone I know you all care for me and a lot of you that didn`t. I know you are sick of me being unhappy but if you would rather not be my friend because of then I guess you should go because you all don`t see what I see or what I myself felt. I lost the one person I trust the most and fucked it so I guess I deserve this all. But I am unhappy he was the only person that knew me better then anyone. I deserve this so maybe I`ll stay away till I am happy. Ya know there are time that I am happy but what I lost was my boyfriend, my best friend and the first person I was 100% comfortable around. So you can choose if you wanna know me because I know he doesn`t and I`m trying to deal with it. Maybe I`m being stupid but to me he was worth everything! I won`t regret or take that back!

I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeahhh
And now I know I need you each and every day
I can't live without you, so don't run away

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?

so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
we both know that i'm not over you
i'm not over you

God this blows

Ha Ha Ha .....

2005-03-13T18:55:13Z

Your Life as a Celebrity by Karen_Walker
username
reason for being famous
plastic surgery you've had done
your tabloid scandal	gambling problem
your stalker	mistyamber
your best friend
your nemesis
the tabloids think you're dating
you're really dating
your secret lover
your bitter ex
how long you stay in the spotlight	a year

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Everything I Feel In A Song..............

2005-03-12T23:32:22Z

I remember when you filled my heart with joy
Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space
'Cause now you have no interest in anything I have to say
And I have allowed you to make me feel dumb
What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

I want to kiss you
Does she want you with the pain that I do
I smell you in my dreams
But now when we're face to face you won't look me in the eye
No time no friendship no love
Don't say don't touch you I can't touch you no more
Can't touch you any more any more
I don't touch you anymore

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

Relizing..........

2005-03-12T22:07:42Z

You were my life you were my soul you were everything that made me come alive. Now you are gone and now I`m left to wonder what I did to make me hate. I know I should hate you like you do to me but I guess I can`t . I cannot do this anymore, I guess thanks for making me have good year of my life. bye Chris

~*~Blinks Pixie~*~

Baby Please....

Survey Says.......

This Was Exstreamly Gay!!!!!!

"Karma" By: Alicia Keys

Update.....

blinks182143 @ 2005-08-02T23:06:00

Survey Says....

Survey Says....

Sad............

My Lil Poem.....

Update...........

With Someone Who Makes Me Smile.....

Hhhhhhhhhhhhmmmm......

"Sally`s Song" Nightmare Before Christmas

Think Again......

blinks182143 @ 2005-03-21T06:58:00

I love it

Question......

OMG......

Fuck Everything.....

This Shit Causes Insomnia.....

I don`t care what anyone thinks about this....

Ha Ha Ha .....

Everything I Feel In A Song..............

Relizing..........

~~Blinks Pixie~~